Love Hurts

sydney 008

Have you ever taken the time to go back and reread some of the things you have written – say from a year or two ago? If you don’t blog, perhaps you journal. Let me tell you, it is well worth your time.

When I was going through some files today, I discovered 2 particular experiences that were major happenings in my life. I wasn’t blogging at the time, but I did share them on Facebook. It’s interesting to read about your experience much later, especially when you aren’t filled with all of those emotions that pushed you into writing about it in the first place.

The one I’m going to share happened about a year and a half ago. My eyes still fill up with tears as I remember that anticipation of having to take Sydney to the vet one last time. A Monday I will never forget….. 

What a week this has been.  Watching our dog’s health rapidly deteriorate  has been heart wrenching.   Sydney truly has been the best dog ever! Even though we’ve had our share of frustrating moments, such as the numerous times she found my hidden bags of candy(and downed every last bite), her sweet personality always helped me to forgive and forget! 

Most amazing trick she did was pull out the peanut butter jar from the Lazy Susan, untwist the lid with her teeth, and eat as much peanut butter as possible before getting caught!   I say that takes talent and determination!

She has taught me so many lifelong lessons. When we discovered that she was diabetic several years ago, I remember thinking that there was no way that I would be able to give her a shot. NO WAY!  Then,  I learned  that when you truly love something, you will do whatever it takes … even though it’s out of your comfort zone.

When she started losing her eyesight, I was amazed at how she was able to maneuver around like normal and remain so stinkin’ happy. She’s taught me to be happy in ALL circumstances, even when I can’t “see”  where I’m going. And today…..whew….she is teaching me that I stink at saying goodbye.  Simple as that.

I never dreamed I would dread seeing a Monday approach as much as I do now.  Such a sad, sad time for me and for my family. But, I am so thankful to have had such a wonderful, loving sidekick that has made me feel loved, even when I didn’t deserve it. What an example of unconditional love….


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